Are You Afraid of Your Dream?
by Angela Breidenbach
For months I sat on an almost finished screenplay. My first. A huge learning curve. But I dream of creating movies that touch and heal hearts. I can see myself on that red carpet, not in the spotlight, but watching the stars in their beautiful premiere outfits, getting interviewed about a movie I wrote. Somehow, each time I planned to work on it, something else managed to get in the way. On and on the days flew with always a reason I couldn’t finish the last few pages until the contest date loomed.
I remembered my first magazine article. How terrifying it was to send my words forth because I knew it would be rejected. Why would anyone want to buy my article? Then, it sold. I remember the first novel I attempted. I didn’t even know dialogue from different characters started a new paragraph back then. But, I learned. That story won a first place award for unpublished authors in 2007, although it’s still waiting for a rewrite due to all I’ve learned since that bumbling attempt. Now ten years later, 16 books of varying genres have been published because of what I learned from that contest and the thoughtful feedback from the judges. And since then? I’ve judged nearly 1,000 books professionally.
I’ve worked hard to earn adjectives like “best-selling” and “award-winning” describing my work. But deep inside, it’s still hard to believe those words are connected to me. Statistics say I’m entering this new challenge with everything against me. There’s no way to rise above the multitude of talent already in the pool, so I might as well give up and drown.
Except for one thing . . . God put this dream inside me. He wove the desire to write books and movies and to talk on the radio into my DNA, before I was born. God knows where He’s taking me, my creativity and my career. I may fear rejection. I may fear putting myself and my innermost creative thoughts out into the world. I may fear losing. But God is in charge of the results. Whether I have more to learn to hone my craft, whether I win or lose, whether I’m accepted or rejected, I choose to follow the calling God gave me. I refuse to stand in front of God at the end of my life and say, “Um, I just couldn’t get up the nerve.”
I gulped. I hesitated. I reread my work, knowing I have a lot more to learn. And then I clicked “send” on the contest application, throwing my work into the great unknown. I don’t know what will happen. I do know that if I don’t obey I will miss out on what God has planned for me, for my good and for my future.
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Angela Breidenbach writes romance through the ages, hosts the radio show Lit Up, and is in college to get her genealogical studies degree. She’s the president of the Christian Authors Network. Angie lives in Missoula, MT, with her hubby and Muse, a trained fe-lion, who can shake hands, lay down and roll over, and jump through a hoop. Surprisingly, Angie can also.
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