Bold, Humble Faith
by Susie Larson
Ever had one of those weeks when everything that could go wrong does go wrong? You can’t find your groove to save your life and your circumstances repeatedly trip you up and stress you out? I’d be surprised if you said no. And more than a little impressed.
I remember one such week for me. I battled insomnia in the worst way, which made me feel prickly all over. My children were out of sorts, too. They were under the weather and crabby and seemed to cry over the littlest things. I felt irritable and easily frustrated. And so tired that my skin hurt. If I didn’t trip over a toy or pair of shoes, I’d drop something.
At one point, I passed by a mirror and winced. I didn’t at all like the reflection staring back at me. Not one bit. I saw only the worst version of myself. Tired. Crabby. Exhausted. Brain-fogged.
Amidst the temptation to loathe myself and cringe at my weakness, I put my foot down and prayed: “Lord, even here, even now, I belong to You. And despite my bleary eyes and messy hair, I’m still Your treasure—a spoken-for heir of God. This is true because You say it’s true. Thank You, thank You for seeing past my frazzled exterior and for valuing the treasure of my soul. I wrap my arms around Your grace. I seek Your face in this place. And I will finish this race because You promised to get me safely home. In Jesus’ name, I pray, Amen.”
Then I felt an inner whisper, a nudge, to open the Bible to 2 Corinthians 4:13. Now please let me qualify something here: This doesn’t always happen. I don’t regularly receive a pointed direction to Scripture, but I do every once in a while, so I listen closely when such nudges come to me. Here’s the passage I looked up that particular day:
It is written: “I believed; therefore I have spoken.” Since we have that same spirit of faith, we also believe and therefore speak. . .
2 Corinthians 4:13
Read the second part of that verse again: Since we have that same spirit of faith, we also believe and therefore speak. First, we dare to believe; we grab God’s truth as our very own. Then, amidst our choice to believe, we walk and talk like it’s true.
When faith makes its way into our ears, it also finds its way into our hearts. In my experience, when my ears hear my mouth say truths that God has reflected in His Word, I’m changed. I’m strengthened. And I remember once again that I’m not who I was. I’m not what I do. I’m someone God loves and enjoys. We can walk in His promises, not because we’re perfect, but because He is. We can enjoy His presence because He’s the One who invited us there in the first place.
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